Certainly having a baby has changed a big part of how we spend our "free" time. But even he has a tiny array of activities; play dates, Gymland (or whatever those places are called), napping, eating, pooping, repeat. Days just get filled up. And then its Monday and a whole new week begins :)!
Today though, it seems like the world stopped spinning for a while.
Today was the first day in a long long time where I truly had nothing to do. Sure I can always think of things to do, people to call, places to visit. But in reality there were no pressing tasks... No one to "catch up with". No one that i've been meaning to go see. No email or bills that need addressing. No gardening that should get done. No cleaning or clearing (less stuff=less mess).
So from the moment I woke up I've simply followed the rhythm of the day and let things come to me. Well lets not get unrealistic here, I followed the day as well as possible factoring in Sky's wants and needs! But I didn't feel like I was having to juggle his needs, my needs, the house chores, a to-do lists and finding "Me time" in all that. There was nothing to DO.
It's the strangest feeling.
I spent the whole day just being.
I know that sounds weird but have you ever tried?
I don't mean that I sat and just listened to the birds either. No, in fact we did a bunch of things today. But none of it was planned. Initially we decided to go to the beach. But we locked ourselves out of one of the bedrooms, the one with our house keys in...so we couldn't leave the house. Matt then went on a mission to first pick the lock , which didn't work to eventually climbing up through the attic latch in the kitchen, over to above the bedroom and then hammering down the ceiling board, jumping down onto the bed and opening the door from the inside. We got the house keys back and Sky now thinks his Papa is the coolest ever!
Eventually it took us 3hr to get out the house! By the time the bedroom door was opened again we had our keys but were all hungry....an empty fridge meant we all walked down to the shop and bought vegetable samosas :) Feeding a 1year takes times and clearing that up takes double the time..So finally at 13h40 we left the house.
I suppose I was reflecting on the fact that although we are small family and have never lived in a big city with a buzzing social life I could not remember the last time we had had absolutely nothing to do. Nothing. Not a "quiet day" where we'll get this or that done. Not a "chill" day where we are with friends eating and drinking (getting to and from friends places can be a whole hoo-ha with kids involved!). Not playing music or doing sports or spending time outdoors, all great things but nonethless activities that require coordination, logistics, time frames...
Not either a "do nothing" day where you just surrender to the screens and get totally swallowed up in internet/TV world.
I'm talking about nothing on the schedule, no obligations, no rdvs. You wake up early. You're awake and totally present in your life and ready to just flow with whatever comes..
Has that happened to you lately?
It didn't come easy but I think, at least for a few fleeting moments, I genuinely felt that today.
My mind took hours to hush and slow down, but when I let go of expectations and control all of a sudden, like a sail boat who's engine has been turned off, I just let the wind carry me along.